Long needed update

Haven't been updating as reguarly but things have somewhat calmed down so far.... I finished all the lessons and when my stage check for end of course came up, I pretty much stalled.... I failed the oral portion twice (What got me was that my I hadn't come prepared and also didn't know a few things such as what happens to Vy/Vx when you go up and also stall speeds) and on the second one, I messed up on something real stupid reading the POH... During the flying portion it was pretty bad... 1st attempt I failed on the landing part along with the ground manuevers... I went up again, finished EVERYTHING except I messed up on the landings... that got me REAL upset, but what can ya do... went up 1 more time to finish the landings, and guess what... messed up again... I did a GA way too close to the ground and it just ended up being a stupid landing that was sideloaded... so what does this mean? HAVE TO REDO THE WHOLE DAMN FLYING PORTION AGAIN which takes roughly 3 hours, which you can't really complete on 1 run... This obviously really f'ed up my morale and this is starting become something that I just want to get over with, not something that i'm looking forward to... I believe this is happening because my insturctor is just not adequate... It feels like he is not good enough, hard to explain, he doesn't 'explain enough' maybe it is because I'm his 1st student, or maybe because english is not his 1st language. Also I'm getting VERY nervous up there being watched like that, thats not good either... I have to fight that... I went up with another instructor to kind of go over some things and have his perspective of my flying and he and I decided I go up 1 last time with my inst. to clean up a few things... I also want to practice more landings... my landings are fine, its my crosswind technique that I'm not happy with, I keep landing sideloaded... its something I just have to practice. Tuesday I will go for my last 'review' flight and then do the WHOLE fucking thing flying stage check again, i'm really not looking forward to it... School said they need 'consistency' from me.... I still can't see the relevance of landing and doing lost procedures, but whatever floats their boat... I know this school isn't after my money, our chief inst. is an awesome person, but I'm still confused about doing the whole thing... I know the DPE can retest whatever they want, but that doesn't still show me the relevance of all the other crap with landing... Anyways, I just want to get this damn PPL and get it over with... This is not the attitude I was hoping to have at the end of the course. I believe it's the school's and my inst's fault as much as mine.

Cliff notes: Up to lesson 26 which is end of course... I failed the flying portion 3 times in a row due to crappy landings (and once on ground maneuvers) so now I have to do the whole thing again... if you want more details, read above. I know I'm one of the 'better' if not best students in the PPL program in my class, so that makes me REAL curious how the other guys will do.... I blame my messing up not only on myself but also on my inst. I don't want to change him, because I'm pretty much done with the course, I fly with him one last time and thats it (I hope) I need to work on my crosswind landing technique, and thats just practice.... not CFI time imo.